DOH!

Originally Posted on March 3, 2017
I’ve been a stay at home mom for 12 years now and I love it. Hands down the best job I’ve EVER had! Since I divorced 5 years ago, I’ve tried a couple of things here and there. I am a licensed cosmetologist and have kept fairly busy cutting hair out of my home. I love doing hair but for me it has not been the most consistent income. I also started a cute little t-shirt company (@independentees) on instagram a few years ago. I took a simple idea from a tshirt by a fancy designer, which I could not afford, and made one for myself and it was an instant hit. I was unprepared for the overnight success of it and a few weeks into it, I was awarded 90ish% custody of my children. My kids were not in a very good place and were in desperate need of my full attention. So with the change in custody I was unable to stay on top of my sales and shipments… eventually someone else took the idea and has made a very successful business out of it. It’s been frustrating to know that I had an idea that could have really benefited my family but I know in my heart, that I was doing what my little family needed at the time. I also tried to fill in as a receptionist and accountants assistant at my friends real estate company here and there but for the most part, I’ve been a full time mommy.
Now that I’ve remarried, and my kids are a little more independent, I’m looking to get back out into the workforce. Since my business endeavors really never panned out, I’m finding that for the 3rd time in my adult life, I’m having to start over again. It can be a heavy burden at time to see my peers starting to get to that place of financial stability where as I feel that often times, I am spinning tricks to cover all life’s costs. There is a lot associated with being divorced that makes this extra difficult. Granted for the past 3 years I’ve had my children majority of the time, child support can only do so much. Don’t get me wrong, we have had plenty. I’ve had to use a big chunk of my savings, have had to re prioritize my spending (work in progress) and learned to live with out but these have all been great lessons for myself and my children. My husband is such a hard worker and I am always amazed at his ability to work LONG shifts and come home and immerse himself into our family. I’m ready to get out there and help so that we can put our dreams into reality.
I had a real job interview a few days ago. I haven’t had one of those in 10+ years. It went really well… I think. I applied for a job as a “Ramp Agent” for a small airline here in the valley. A “Ramp Agent” is the people you see loading and unloading your luggage on/off the plane, driving the push back vehicles, and cleaning the planes at night. Nothing glamorous and considering the heat in the desert, it’s not for the faint of heart. It’s a part time gig with great benefits, as in free flights for me, my husband, and our 6 kids! So to me it’s totally worth it. I’ve been pretty pumped about it and constantly checking my email for a “congratulations, you’re hired” email. Haha… but today when I was thinking about the actual legistics of this job fitting into my schedule the one thing I forgot was… SUMMER. So much of our custody arrangement on both sides revolves around the fact that I’m a stay at home mom!
(Heart Sinks)
I’m bummed yet again feeling inadequate.
Disappointed that even if I do get the job, I’ll probably have to turn it down.
Adulting is hard.

Post edit... a few weeks after posting this, I went to Real Estate school. So far it's been a great experience.